Fantasy galz

strong love

2011-02-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

Cinta taufiq & irwani

Diari cinta kita,

Yg akan tetap teguh berdiri selamanya...

happy new year 2011

2011-01-02T03:40:00.002+08:00

HaPpY nEw yEaR 2011 hUbBy Ku Yg TerSyG!!

And also to evryone out there (^^,)

Another year has past.. there is alot of obstacles for us to go thru in the yr 2010 in our relationship.. im soo glad we have made it tis far syg.. (^^,) the end of the year 2010 ended with us getting engaged for real!! yes, a real commitment has begun!

Counting down to our wedding day.. that shall be bout 11mths and 10 days frm now..

wow! left with less than a year to go tau sayang!! im soo excited and nervous!

lots of preparation to be done.. ooooooohhhh!! hehe (^^,)

Hope evrything goes smoothly and our love for each other remain strong as always even stronger til finally the memorable day comes.. (^^,)

I LOVE EU SOO MUCH MUHD TAUFIQ, HUBBYKU YG TERSYG!!

selamat pegantin baru aidil n ayuni

2010-12-06T02:07:00.003+08:00

Selamat pengantin baru to

Aidil & Ayuni..

Ooo.. sayang when is our turn ni? hehe

cant wait tau.. (^^,)

finally im 21...

2010-11-28T01:43:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to me!!

Im officially 21 yrs old! yeah!!

finally get all the legal passes.. hehe.. (^^,) dun need any consent parents or guardian.. Im free to make my own decision.. (^^,)

And meaning i can get marry soon kan sayang??.. bwahahah!!

happy 1st anniversary sygku!!

2010-10-28T23:31:00.004+08:00

HaPpY 1sT AnNiVeRsArY HuBbYkU Yg TeRsYg!!

Finally we reach it!! a whole full year of a blessful relationship.. But behind it all there lays a lot of hardship, happiness, sadness and others obstacles. Im soo glad that we manage to overcum it all! and tis is the 1st relationship i had that reach a yr.. thks romeo ku for making it all happen! i love eu soo much.. insyallah we shall also ovrcum and stay strong in the yrs ahead.. and celebrated more anniversary ahead, like we did tis yr that is to go to universal studio resort world! love it!

North, south, east or west,

cinta Irwani And Taufiq is always the best!!

LOVE EU LOTS MUHD TAUFIQ!!

2010-10-12T23:43:00.003+08:00

Cinta irwani dan taufiq still remains strong forever!!

counting dwn days to our 1st anniversary!! (^^,)

2010-10-01T03:22:00.002+08:00

Im Back Again!!
After bout 2plus mths of M.I.A...

My life as usual have its upz n dwnz.. But Till now i can still survive.. hooray for me! (^^,) i am indeed a strong galz.. (like real je.. padahal2) LOL

Want to update bout whats has been happening pun too long gak.. Mcm2 happens..

Story yg happy, sad, heart breaking, freaking n stressing and etc2...

Dri sebelum puase, tgh puase, lepas puase tat is hari raya.. mcm2 happens.. But still too lazy to story panjang2.. so to pendek kan, upload pic jek.. hehe! tu pun not all..

better then nuthing..

Ohh Ya, update bout werk lak, im still werking at tat freaking company tat have a freaking patient yg i have to take care regularly.. What to do.. Im their fav nurse.. hehe, (^^,)..

till now, enjoys the pictures below.. will update more soons n regularly insyallah if rajin.. toodles!!

my hari raya 2010 photos

2010-10-01T03:03:00.005+08:00

HaRi RaYa AiDiLfItRi 2010!!
PhOtO gAlLeRy...

off days

2010-07-18T02:52:00.002+08:00

YAY2! Its my off days!! (^^,)

So here i am still wide awake n not goin to slp yet.. bz updating blog n fb.. hehe.. my syg awal2 da go to lala land.. leaving me alone. hmm..

lepaking buddies..

2010-07-11T18:20:00.002+08:00

On 9th july 2010..
A day with Lepaking buddies..

1stly jln2 tmn aidil n ayuni buy n survey brg for dulang hantaran.. then wen to eat at a ayam penyetz small restaurant.. then headed to play bowlingz..

arshad loves

2010-07-09T05:16:00.004+08:00

Always remains the special one's.. (^^,)

Muhd arshad..

Im really soo happy seeing my bro condition and state has change alot.. since the past few mths he was in D.I.L state till now is already much2 better. Had gain alot of weight.. Frm being to skinny just skin n bone till becam abit chubby..

I really syg him alots.. Cant bear to lose him..

MW Medical mid yr dinner

2010-07-09T05:07:00.002+08:00

MW Medical mid yr dinner..
On the 3rd of july 2010..

The health company im werkin in organise a mid yr event.. starting frm bowling at kallang leisure park then having dinner at bumbu resaturant..

but too bad i was werkin earlier in the morning so cant attend the bowling event.. soo sad (-.-)

So has to attend the dinner no matter wat.. cant escape.. the food there is not bad.. quite nice..

Lucky syg sudi accomany me.. thank eu dear.. (^^,)

his frens that we sometime hang out with..

2010-07-09T04:41:00.004+08:00

These are syg frens frens which we usually hang out with when free..

on our 9th mth..

2010-07-05T01:17:00.005+08:00

The above pics taken wen we went to ate at bbq chicken on,

our 9mthsary..

happy 9th monthsary syg

2010-06-28T23:39:00.004+08:00

To my one and only fiance and future hubby..

HAPPY 9TH MONTHS

HUBBY KU SYG!!!

Both of us got a special item n gifts for our 9th mth..

that is new hp! samsung wave s8500.. coolest hp ever had!!

dedicated for my hubby

2010-06-27T03:28:00.002+08:00

Specially For eu Syg...

You are perfect in my eyes..

I love the way eu care for me,

I love the way eu make me safe when wrapped in ur arms,

I love the way eu protect me,

I love the way eu always be there for me,

So many things i love bout eu till its hard to name em all

Ilove the way eu talk to me,

I love the way eu kiss me,

I love the way eu look at me,

I love ur big eyes,

i love ur smiles,

I love evrything bout eu

Cox u're perfect in my eyes...

2010-06-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

halloo there my dear reader's..

Once again im back blogging aftr almost a few wks missing.. (",)

roughly the mth of june was a fun and exciting one.. really had a great time with my syg, family n frens aside frm the hectic job of mine.. (^^,) nvr did i have tis kind of exciting experience be4.. (",) the kids are having holiday's fun so do i..

but i still have to werk lol.. cant escape frm it..

outing with family.. spend most of the time as usual with syg.. then once in a while wen out with syg and his frens lepaking.. then also work.. all my time has been spend wisely.. had time for leisure, for work, for family n for my syg.. (^^,) loving it all lots.. hehe

further on is the pics n post bout all the funs n outing.. enjoy reading thru it.. (^^,)

labrador trip with family

2010-06-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

15th june 2010

Family trip to labrador park

another family trip.. tis time to labrador park.. and my idea again to go trekking up n in the forest.. hehe (",) had our dinner at mac at kallang then at nite went to marina barrage.. the kids was having fun playin water there..

family outing 130610

2010-06-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

13th june 2010

Family outing to henderson wave

it was a busy day.. at 1st wen geylang with sis n family.. then fetch syg, his sis n his mum.. then our family outing trip started.. at 1st went to henderson wave then headed to anchorpoint as kak ayu want to see the cotton on kids and wen to eat at kfc there.. then to ikea to jln2.. lastly back to tpy, my future in laws hse.. (",)

expedition to pulau ubin 040610

2010-06-20T22:02:00.002+08:00

4th june 2010

Expedition to pulau ubin (^^,)

above are the random pic taken while at pulau ubin.. the rest of the photo has been uploaded in fb for further view.. (",)

it was a fun and excited trip to pulau ubin with syg n his werk colleague.. it was a 2day 1 night trip.. nvr did i experience the great n fun before in my 20 years of living.. (",)

we went trekking up and down hills, thru forest n lots more.. recky to diff part of ubin to find a place to set up our tents.. it was really fun but tiring till at night my legs were really aching and ended up tearing up cox could not bear the pain (-.-) lol.. hehe

btw went the sunsets at 7pm the place starts to become very dark.. even the clock only shows 8pm, it was very dark n quiet.. the guys also fishing but theres no fish at all.. haha.. then througout the nite we only play monopoly deal.. (",)

Overall it was really a fun experience.. AND3.. i want to do this kind of activity again.. can kan syg?? (^^,)

31 may 2010

2010-06-01T03:05:00.002+08:00

31st may 2010..

syg fetch me frm werk.. then headed to parkway parade to shop for my things as my salary is finally receive.. (^^.) on the way there, on the road i took some pics.. hehe.. nthing better to do at the back.. hve to hold on my hp tight as syg rides quite fast..(",) soo, bought some personal stuff, presents for sulaiman ( my 8th brother ) bdae.. Then bank in my savings amt in uob n standard chartered bank.. top up my ezlink $50 for use in whole mth of jun..

When to eat dinner at banquet n i ate mee pok fishball.. soo nice n spicy! hehe.. syg as usual his meal must hve chicken so he ate chicken rice.. (",)

accounting not end yet.. headed back home, on my lappy then pay my hp bill, transfer savings amt in posb my savings acc..

till now still not asleep yet.. hehe.. bz editing pics frm just now to upload n update.. hahaha.. (^^,)

Btw tmr goin to chijmes to take company individual pics of myself.. hmm.. not sure to go alone or with kak ayu.. i sound her then she agree to follow.. syg cant send as he got his term test tmr frm 330pm til 43opm.. my apptmnt is at 4pm.. but then syg took a day off frm werk tmr.. soo if i go alone syg will fetch me after he is done.. hmm..

then like tat i have to go alone.. hmm.. maybe i shall.. dun wan to trouble kak ayu.. then can meet my syg.. hehe..

Im back again..

2010-06-01T02:16:00.005+08:00

Haloo my dear reader's,

who i appreciated soo much for reading my blog..

IM BACK!!

He accompany me at home to look after the our nieces as their parents when out on a date.. as im still not feeling soo well.. thnk eu syg for spending the wkends with me despite eu still have to study for ur term test.. (^^,)

I love eu soo much my one and only fiance!! btw

happy 8th mth to us on 280510..

Two weeks has past..

basically the past 2 wks have been a very busy week for me.. truckloads of werk n looonng shifts.. (-.-) till im soo exhausted and felt sick.. but then still go to werk.. being influence by my syg not to take m.c.. hehe

i think the off days in btween are enough to recharge my energy even thou its does not last long throughout the day.. lol (-.-)

the 1st wkends syg was sick now the 2nd wkends im sick.. hehe.. nice, take turns to take care of each other.. hehe..

2010-05-23T01:48:00.003+08:00

I love this guy soo much..

He is my evrythings, im too addicted to him.. i cant survive without him..
I really2 want eu n only eu syg..
I really2 love eu n only eu syg..
I really2 trust eu n only eu syg..
U will always be my inspiration, my spirits n soul that motivate me to continue living now.. Ku tk bisa hidup tanpa mu syg..

soo much of morning shifts,,,

2010-05-23T01:25:00.002+08:00

Soo much morning shifts!

M y basic werk routine... tues, wed, thurs n sat is my werkin days.. then my off day will be on mon, fri n sun.. soo thru out that werkin days been having straight private nursing for 12hrs, 8am to 8pm.. soo tired lol.. need to wake up early2 morning as pt hse is very far by the time reach home already late..

lucky i have my lovable syg to fetch me home on some days.. (^^,) thk eu syg... despite of ur hectic n tiring sch n werk schedule u always make time for me.. i really appreciate it alot.. till i could even see his tired look whenever he fetch me.. kesian dier.. (-.-) i syg eu sgt2 tau.. cinta wani for taufiq will always last forever..

Im soo lucky n proud to have eu syg as my bf cums fiance cums hubby to be in 2013.. hehe (^^,) btw both our parents have given their blessings on our decision.. and im soo glad bout it.. now its up to us to werk hard till that special moment.. all uses our hard earn money n not troubling others.. (^^,) insyallah we can make it syg.. as long as we are always there to support each other..

wani sayang n cinta taufiq sgt!!

love taken to the nxt level..

2010-05-16T02:25:00.004+08:00

Cinta Wani dan Taufiq,
has been taken to the nxt level..

With the rings that symbolise our love, and the important decision made n propose to a serius level, im hereby proudly am engaged with Muhammad Taufiq.. When a very important decision has been made to tie our relationship.. Early 2011 TILL end of 2012, will be a critical n crucial period for us n our relationship.. Therefore, 2013 will be a meaningful n memorable yr for us..

Insyallah, selagi hati kite masih tetap teguh dan bersatu, sehati da sejiwa,

ape yg tlah dirancang akan dpt dipenuhi dan tepati dgn izin nye..

Dgn berkat restu ibubapa, sokongan keluarga terdkat dan sahabat2 yg tlah dan akan mengetahui.. semoga ianya jgak akan menjdi dorongan bgi kite.. Amin.. (^^,)

ctkd tanpamu.wmv

2010-05-10T03:19:00.001+08:00

'Sayang ku ingatkan dirimu, bahwa ku tk bisa hidup tanpamu..'

ayuni birthday chalet..

2010-05-10T02:49:00.002+08:00

9th may 2010..

Had a wonderful today at syg bestie, ayuni's bbq birthday party at chalet located at bukit batok.. which a new location which i nvr been der be4.. (",) but the place, setting and environments are great.. quite peaceful.. and the rent is quite cheap $85 a day a night.. but no recreation nearby.. and only limited for home team members..

arrived there from the start of the events, help syg to bbq the raw food.. while bbqing, also ate quite alot there.. (",) hehe.. then syg send me back home be4 11 as he wanted to watch soccer live at home..

happy belated mother's day..

2010-05-10T02:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!

here i am wanting to wish my mum a happy mother's day, even da terlmbt wish as was bz.. tpi tkpe the thoughts count.. (^^)

then the flashback of the past year i celebrated with my mum n siblings as always, came across my mind.. and i really miss those time.. so sad that i could only wish her thru fone.. :,( really miss em alot.. but then im still glad thy have a happy time there celebrating mothers day.. at least witout me the family bonding and happiness still goes on.. :,)

whatever had happen i still love eu mum.. thk eu for taking care of me since i was born till im already grown up n be independent now.. i will do my best to show other that u have thought me to be a better person witout troubling others too much.. im really sorry if i done great mistake to eu.. ur sacrifises will always be rmbred n adore, no matter what i will still respect n love eu always mama.. (^^) u are always a great mother for all ur 11 children..

2010-05-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

Specially for my sayang...

@ marina bay

2010-05-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

2th May 2010..

Moments with my syg...

it was my slping day after nights shifts.. after had a nice sleep.. syg fetch me up then we ride past marina bay sands to see the surroundings.. then headed to marina square to have our dinner.. as im super hungry.. (",)

ate at long john silver, had seafood grill, yummy.. then syg ate grill chicken.. its was nice too.. (",) then when to take a stroll at marina bay..

At 8pm, syg wants to rush home to watch soccer.. soo, had to follow him back to his hse.. pack n bought some grill fish for my mum in law wannabe.. (^^,)

After that he send me home.. had a great wkends with him as usual..

our 7th mths..

2010-04-29T03:38:00.005+08:00

28th april 2009,

HAPPY 7TH MTHS TO US!! (^^,)

The journey i had with eu since we 1st known each other on 28th sep 2009, that marks the start of our loves has been a great and wonderful one syg.. i really appreciate ur presence in my life since then.. that point of time wen i facing a very difficult blow of my life, u were there to support me and guide me in life till now.. thnk eu soo much for that syg..

As the days past my love for eu is getting stronger n hotter frm ever.. i love eu n only eu syg.. no one else.. thnks for giving me the precious yet unvaluable gift, that is the factor that i hve been missing frm eu.. (^^) percaye lah cinta ku hanye utk mu sygku, putera hatiku.. smpii ke hembusan nafas ku yg terakhir aku akan tetap menyayangi mu syg.. eu are evrything for me syg..

I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!

syg treat me to swensen's for our dinner.. thk eu soo much syg.. it has been quite a long time since we ate there rite syg..?? hehe (^^,) the food was nice and great at 1st we are hungry especially both just finish werk.. but then towards the end we were soo full, or i guess its da muak! hehe.. then the dessert so call help to hilang kan muak nye.. lol.. hehe..

lack of the the important factor by him..

2010-04-26T02:22:00.002+08:00

lack of the important factor aside frm his true love.. (-.-)

im really grateful to have eu syg.. u guide me thru alot during my hardships.. u always there for me wen i need help.. u have shown me how to be a strong n independent person, so that others wont take advantage of me.. u gave me ur full care n concern.. u showered me with ur true n sincerely love,,

but then there is one things tat i lack frm eu.. and it make me felt helpless.. just cox of one incident.. u totally vanished it away frm me.. no matter how hard n how much i try to gain it back but still no point.. i felt so helpless.. all this while, i have been soo loyal n faithful to eu.. but still no point.. with eu telling me directly tat there is no chance for me to gain it frm eu again, no even a lil bit.. it really put a permanent bruise to my heart.. i shed alot of tears when thinkin of it.. and cox the lack of that factor, some arguemnet arise frm it.. and it make my heart ache alot.. just cox a one tym incident, i have to gain alot of impact frm it.. i try to ignore the feelings but i cant.. it felt really hurtful deep inside evry sgl tym being brought up.... u noe i love eu lot.. and i have shown it all to eu.. what more do eu want?? u tau tk bertape hampe nye i bile tiap kali tat lack of factor causes an issue btween us.. :,( tpi i really appreciate ur presence in my life..

i will always love eu forever n no one else.. (^^)

wedding function..

2010-04-25T23:53:00.005+08:00

attending weddings function..

two weddings function i attended today.. one is syg cuz wedding, when with my kak ayu n family plus my future in laws family (^^,) then other is syg fren wedding.. its a quite busy and tiring day.. rushing here and there.. but spending time with family is a great experience.. especially with my new family.. (^^,)

btw bile agak nye oue turn ehk syg?? (^^,) hmm..

another 5 to 6 yrs more..

pic taken with my beloved siblings

2010-04-20T23:22:00.003+08:00

CHERISH ALL THE TIME I HAD WITH THEM!!

finally get to meet my siblings

2010-04-20T19:47:00.003+08:00

19th april 2010..

After quite a long time since 1st of jan i haven meet my beloved siblings, i finally get to meet them.. im soo miss em soo much.. glad mum bring them in singapore on my off day at last as usually thy came in i was bz werkin.. soo miss the chance of meetin em a few times.. (-.-)

they all also change alot.. getting taller and bigger.. and my sisters are getting taller than me.. hehe.. all my lil brothers are getting bigger and much independent now.. no more lil small kids.. but some of their old character are still the same as the last time i was with em, the time wen i took care of em since they were born.. :')

as i mention before it is really hard for me to be apart frm em.. but slowly till now i manage to cope with the losses.. but no matter what they are still apart of me n my life and i really love them alots.. like how a mother love their child.. no matter how far we are apart but our hearts are always close together.. as the bonding since young were there..

not long we have to be apart again.. as the meeting was short only.. tk ckp pun utk mengubat rindu.. dun noe when i could met up with em again.. hmm.. im really touch, cox till now, my lil ayob still loves me and wants to get close n manje2 with me like be4.. even when he has to get home and be aprt , i could see the sadness in his eye.. he still misses me alot like i misses him.. :,( .. how i wish i could spend more time with him and em.. haish.. (-.-)

i will always love and misses my adik2.. they are always in my heart (^^,)

arshad sayang..

2010-04-20T19:35:00.003+08:00

19th april 2010..

When to visit my bro again @ st andrew's hospital after bout a wk plus i haven visited him as was too busy.. syg accompany me always.. was really shock and glad to see much changes in my bro now.. he is much chubbier then before.. no more skinny like skeleton boy.. im soo happy to see his condition change.. he is much alert now, much happier n could smile n much noisy like before.. (^^,)

should visit him much often.. and will try too..

couple stuffs..

2010-04-19T05:01:00.004+08:00

Our couple stuffs.. (^^,)

after werkin soo hard and finding through all sources.. we have managed to get our most use stuff as couple stuff.. i bought the same hp as syg E71.. and syg get it at a good price.. then aftr searching for a good new laptop for myself at 1st, then we ended up buyin 2 laptop same brand at a very reasonable n great price.. (^^,)

one for me and syg.. soo happy!! we are using same hp n laptop..

ni baru name nye sehati sejiwe.. sume mesti nk same jgak.. hehe (",)

labrador trip with fiq syg..

2010-04-19T04:28:00.007+08:00

18th april 2010..

labrador park trip to window shoppin at ikea.. (^^,)

i was fetch by my beloved taufiq syg frm home.. made our way to labrador park but stop by at bedok to buy nasi lemak to pack n brng along to eat there.. (",)

plan to go sight seeing n take lots of pic.. but then after bout 30min the dark cloud came by.. plan was cancel, and turn out we went window shoppin n touring at ikea.. surveying and visualising what we want our future house to be like.. (",) hehe.. had lots of fun there..

we will try our very best to make our future plan n dreams came true k syg..

tk sabar lak rase nye nk ade our own house n living in it together as husband n wife.. (".) insyallah yer syg.. cox only eu i want to be with now, in the future n forever till the end of time or my last breath.. cyg cintakan syg sgt2!! (^^,)

IRWANI LOVES TAUFIQ LOTS!!

baby contest 2010

2010-04-19T04:13:00.003+08:00

18th april 2010

attending tamp west baby contest,

accompany kak ayu n family to natasya & nadia big day.. they participated in a tamp west cc baby contest 2010.. natasya took part in 2 events tat is most sporty baby n most photogenic siblings.. nadia only took part in the most photogenic siblings.. soo both of em have to take pic together..

natasya did not win the sporty bby prt as its too difficult for her age..

but unexpectedly among alot of siblings participate in the photogenic part,

they turn out to be the 2nd prize winner of that category..

soo happy n proud for them.. (^^,)

im soo gonna miss my syg..

2010-04-04T19:01:00.002+08:00

im soo gonna miss my syg soo much.. (-.-) '

my syg is goin to leave me behind for 8 days as he is goin to laos for his oversea community project.. hmm..(-.-) he will be back only on 12th april.. im soo goin to miss hima lot.. there's no one to fetch or send me to werk.. to accompany me out during my off days n spend more time with me.. n more sadly cant even contact or msg each other.. (-.-)

i hope i could survive tis long days witout him by my side.. hmm.. could not send him off as his flight will be early in the mornz tml, just can send him dwn to the carpark today after spending the whole day n night with me yesterday.. tears was shed as i could not hold it any longer.. n syg say, " dont be sad or cry, i wont be away long n will be back soon to meet my cyg..."

frankly it is really hard for me to let him go for that long.. cox im soo use havin him by side always.. to me 8 days is like 8 years.. (-.-) hmm.. but no matter wat i still has to stay positive n strong n be independent witout him..

cyg akan sentiase menanti kan kepulangan syg.. semoga syg pergi dan pulang dgn keadaan selamat dan sihat.. and cyg akan sentiase doakan keselamatan mu syg.. amin.. insyallah.. cyg sayangkan syg sgt2..

visits arshad

2010-04-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

my lovable lil special bro..

syg was slping while at arshad place..

when to visits my lil special bro at st andre's community hospital..

since was free yesterday so decided to visit my bro.. since he was transfer there i got no tym to visit him.. finally got the chance.. accompany by my loving syg..

arshad was smiling when he sees me.. (^^,) im soo happy to see him getting better then the 1st time he admitted in kkh.. tat tym his condition was very bad n in DIL state..

but now he is much better n able to open his eye widely.. no matter wat happen we all still love him lots.. and cant bear to lose him.. as he is soo special to us..

long lasting love..

2010-03-30T18:40:00.004+08:00

its already our 5th months..

Im glad and grateful to have someone like eu by my side.. u re always there for me no matter wat happen.. even thou soo much obstacles we ve to go thru, im glad will can still survive it..

soo much arguments, misundrstandin n probs hitting our relationship week by week, mth by mth till at the edge of a separation.. but im glad we can survive thru it till now..

that is why communication and discussion is important in a relationship.. beside that sacrifises, udrstanding n care is important too.. im glad that we possess all that to keep our relationship strong.. plus it does not matter wat other got to say.. the one facing thru tis relationship is us..

and we knows wat best..

insyallah we shall strive for the best to acheive the goal n plans that we ve made for our future and show others that we knows wat we are doing.. i love eu n only eu muhd taufiq, no one else..

u ve guide me alot to face the reality of life.. u udrstand me more than others did..

it made me love eu more.. ur patience for me is really much appreciated..

ure everything to me now..

wani sygkan taufiq sgt2 dan selamenye!! (^^,)

its me as a nurse..

2010-03-30T18:22:00.003+08:00

Irwani abdullah..

full time enrolled nurse, moblie nurse and personal nurse..

which role am i pun i also not sure.. (^^,) as basically im doing all of that.. plus also a role as a staff nurse too i guess, as at tis company most of the duty also as a mobile nurse is related as a staff nurse job.. like give antibiotic thru injection or iv, write report, serve medication n ect..

but it is a good experience for me.. to get my self use to the duties before wantin to further my studies as a staff nurse.. that shud be next year.. for now.. i still has to endure with tis werkin life to save up for studies.. even thou its tiring, boring, demanding, irritating n ect..

all of tis is for my own good and to support myself.. cant depend on others to much.. if at the end of the day thy will talk back or demand something more frm eu.. im starting to realise all of tis since i started werkin life and leadin an independent life.. that is what real life is all about..

yes im no longer a child, adolescence nor a teenager.. im a independant career lady now.. (^^,) and im proud to be one..

Off to werk

2010-03-23T06:20:00.002+08:00

Rise n shine for new day n beginning..
Once again my duty case has change last min.. Thought of getting heated up but then luckily the pts hse was near.. Its at tampines too.. still reasonable n no chance to argue much..
But still not sure how long is the drip or duty i suppose to do..??
Every time like tat.. Haiz..(-.-) Wat to do, my job is call mobile nurse need to travel n face last min duty call up every time..

Love my syg lots

2010-03-23T00:33:00.003+08:00

I love eu lots syg..
Walaupun after soo much arguments, probz n obstacle we have to face, i tetap syg kan eu srg jek..
OnlY eu i wan to lead my life with.. To live happily ever after.. Insyallah, we will acheive our goals n plan.. To settle dwn n have our own hse n family.. That will be on 5 to 6 years time kan syg (^^,)..
Love eu lots2!! I will always be by ur side syg..

My blog entry is plain n dull

2010-03-23T00:21:00.002+08:00

My blog entry is so plain n dull.. Even my syg says " cian nye blog dier da plain aje...." hehe..
Abe wat to do, da mlz n tk de tym to use the comp, plus the comp is soo troublesome, need to wait for a long time till it properly load.. Leceh kan.. Plus always lagged.. Soo now i just surf the net n write my blog entry using my ipod touch lagy convenient.. But then can do nthing much..especially upload n edit pix which is mh fav things to do..
Bila larh i could get my new laptop.. Tunggu mummy sponsor lmbt lah.. Which is end of this mth.. Tk pe, i will still claim for it as she has promise me.. (^^,)

Gettin worn out day by day..

2010-03-21T00:29:00.001+08:00

Getting worn out day by day..
Till i started to fall sick already now..(-.-) but im refrainin my self frm takin mc as it will cause me a deduction frm mu salary as i still udr probation.. And no paid sick leave yet are entitle to me.. Hmm.. Cant bear to risk a less of $66 of my salary.. Lol (-.-)!!
Pls, i need to stay strong no matter wat (^^,).. especially wen my syg is ard i will feel much better always.. (^^,) loving ur presence n comfort tau syg.. N did i mention, i always love eu Soo much!!

2010-03-21T00:22:00.001+08:00

Another wk is comin to an end.. Without me noticing, i have been werkin for bout 2 mths.. Anotther 1more mths till my 3mths probation ends n i will be the a comferm employee.. Hmm..but i myself not sure if i wan to werk there permanently n for a long time.. I just seekin for experience n recomendation be4 i can persue my studies n take diploma in nursing.. Hmm.. I still can cont with tis company n opt for recomendation frm my trainin dr to cont studies.. Then can apply bondin with hospital while studyin.. Hmm.. Or either i can quit tis job soon n apply for hospital n get recomendation n bonding frm em directly.. Still choosin n considerin wat is the best choice.. Hmmm.. (-.-)

my performance now in the company is good.. My recent test (which we have to take module by module) pass with v good results.. Therefore the chances to get promoted n paid bein raise is there.. It is another good point.. Hmm.. (-.-)

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2010-03-15T03:01:00.001+08:00

im just browsing thru my new hp n itouch while surfing net.. After watching 2 dvd.. Syg was watchin with me at 1st, but then half way thru the 2nd movie he slept.. Larhh.. Da pnat sgt, smpii snoring loudly.. Hehe(^^,) cian dier.. Hehe..
Having my off day yesterday n tday.. N soo is my syg., to bab dier slp ovr at mh crib's.. And had plans for this 2 days too,, yesterday wen to relative's n also my syg fren weddings.. So the plan ltr to renew syg pdl and maybe visit my lil bro at hospital.. Then. Not sure..

Now i feel slpy oredy n da nk slp also.. (^^,)

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2010-03-15T02:50:00.001+08:00

Since i ve no tym n lazy to log on to the lagging comp.. I shall post by my itouch thru email.. But wait til i ve bought my new lappy tat will be sponsor by my dearest mommy, if aje she rmbr.. Lol..

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2010-03-12T16:16:00.001+08:00

Just trying to post an entry through my itouch.. Hehe

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Soo bz with my working life

2010-03-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

been soo bz wtih my werkin and daily life..

stresses day in and day out.. non stop.. but luckily i still can manage it til now..
have been adapting to my werk routine.. soo far soo good.. wan to quit also im thinking twice or thrice.. (-.-) as after all its not tat bad n the pay is abit higher den in hospital.. hmm not tat sure..
plus i wan to cont my studies in poly n take my diploma.. tat will be nxt year after i ve gain enough experience.. then i can enter..

hmm.. bout my daily life.. soo far soo good.. manage to support myself all tis while n survive.. my love life.. soo far there has been a dwnturn n crisis.. but slowly manage to ovrcum it slowly..maklum lh, both are still trying to adapt n udrstand each other.. but our love for each other still remain strong.. (^^,)

why always misundrstanding, quarrel and grudges do happen amg the families.. is my presence really bring bad luck to others?? seriously if others noe me well, im not the type who like to make enemy, nor make others become enemy with each other.. i really hate wen tats happen.. i ve realise tat soo far cox of me, all tis things happen.. since the time tat crucial and devastating incidents happen to me.. i noe, i cant blame myself or others.. all has been fated to happen.. tat is why i still remain to be strong n endure it.. and not made myself look like a failure.. sometimes certain occasions n stressor/ emotions really took over my self conscious.. not realising wat i ve done, react or say.. hurting other all ard me.. and end up hurting myself too.. (-.-)

i wan to be brave, strong n really can protect myself so tat others wont made a fool out of me or take advantage of me.. the tough n soft character in me are still in a process to blend in with each other so tat it could be balance.. so the outcum reactions may turn out to be a chaos sometimes.. (^^,) oops!! and i cant really prevent tat..

really now, my life is soo unpredictable.. and im still tryin to adapt to it..

pre valentine day with syg..

2010-02-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

valentine days.. (^^,)

celebrated pre valentine day with syg on 13th feb.. as on the actual day both of us are werking.. too bad.. (-.-) but then its ok.. evryday also is a special day for us.. does not need to be on the actual specific special day to spend special time togther..

btw was surprise to receive a rose frm syg.. it was my 1st tym to receive a rose frm a special guy.. nvr before i receive.. really.. (^^,) thank you syg.. love eu.. i also gave a special gift for my syg.. a key chain we both our name encrafted with a heart.. special for us.. (^^,)

its a bumpy road for my werkin career

2010-02-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

then end of my 3rd week of werking life..

its getting tougher n irritable every single days.. (-.-) i have do my best thou to keep up n produce a good werk.. but then ppl dun look n point wat we do best but only wat we do wrong.. only a simple mistake they make it a fuss.. and i dun tend to do it purpose ly.. plus rich ppl are soo damn irritating.. just becox im from ite n just graduate thy wan to look dwn on my werk quality n start to complain.. im soo piss off.. and my b***h nurse in charge, belief tat rich relative more.. and start to condemn me.. she think she soo good.. only lyk to take advantage of situations n ppl.. but dun mess with the wrong person.. i may be shy, quiet nature but once i blown up, tats it!! i haven shown ppl my true colours yet.. thy only seen the decent, innocent sweet me.. nvrmind.. for now i just follows n join in their game..

plus i made up my mind once my probation period finish, i wan to quit tis stupid job.. makin me tired n stress out only..burning my wallet n pocket only.. with all those transport fees.. in the end i only got alot of craps n rubbish.. still need to endure til late may.. (-.-)

finally a resting day for me..

2010-01-31T21:39:00.002+08:00

a rest day for me..(^^,)

today is my resting day at home.. after the long week of busy werking plus lesson n oso spending time with my beloved bf.. my werk experience is indeed really tiring.. tired off travellin alot.. i learned a lot of new things.. the skills tat i as a enrolled dun do oso i ve to do here at my werkplace.. all the staff are very friendly, nice, pleasant.. thy treat me very well..

btw some of the few things turn out to be as not expected.. the werk duty, rountine n scopes..

at 1st its hard to undrstand n keep track..

but then after few dyas den i could finally catch up.. get my 1st few day salary too, as its ends of the mths mah.. tats y i get earlier too.. but small amt.. nxt mth den get the big amt.. hehe

wen thing goes wrong..

2010-01-24T16:02:00.002+08:00

when somethings goes wrong..

i hate it wen there's argument n misundrstanding occurs between us.. the past few days really tested our feelings, mind n patience alot.. realising more tat i cant lose eu..

u re everything to me syg.. wen the moments u were angry or upset, it really kills me..

i just could not tolerate the situations n feelings.. it either hurts eu or hurts me alot.. i just wants it to end n not to prolonged any longer.. if not the situations might get more worst..

soorry for creating such a scene.. but honestly i really dun meant it to happen at all.. did not expect my syg to treat it soo seriously.. (-.-)

but im really glad evrything is resolve back to normal.. the moments wen u hug me back.. i broke into tears as i realise how great u re to me.. i really love eu alot.. ur presence is much appreciated.. u really means alot to me tau syg..

wen i say i miss eu, i really do misses eu lots.. even thou sumtimes i might not show it, it does not mean that i did not meant it.. deep inside me, im soo delighted tat u re always der by my side.. till its hard to be be apart.. i really hope eu udrstands it.. n btw pls do not always take the negative things or reaction tat i done seriously.. u shud noe how cheeky i can be..(^^,) hehehe..

from the verry3 deep2 inside my hearts n verry3 sincerely stating tat,

irwani love muhammad taufiq berry3 much!! (^^,)

starting werk tml..

2010-01-24T15:56:00.002+08:00

big day tml!!

starting werk oredy tml.. soo, i dun tink i will be blogging regularly, cox comperm bz n tired with my new werkin schedule.. (^^,) dun noe wat will be awaiting for me tml on the 1st day fo werk..

hoping tat everything shall goes well.. and i could adapt fast with the surrounding, timin, routine and ect.. (^.^) finally the 8A attachment paid has come in.. finally can use it for my transportation n food till i get my 1st salary end of nxt mth.. (^^,)

miss my syg..

2010-01-21T17:58:00.003+08:00

Thinking of eu always..

with eu i can be free cox i noe eu love me..

every feeling for eu i make sure to show,

u re the smile on my face whenever i fell low..

u re the external life, the smile of my soul,

its ur presence n love that keep me on hold..

u are the dream i see evry single night,

a love between u n me, i must hold on tight..

i fall in love with eu whenever i see ur face,

in ur heart n mind i will be and no other place..

forever in each other heart we were meant to be,

baby thank eu for loving me.. (^^,)

im soo bored..

2010-01-21T17:53:00.002+08:00

this past 3 days staying at home doing nthing except for chatting n sufing the net and watching tv.. besides tat got help sis do some hsewerk n takin care of bby tasya..

im getting really2 bored if tis has to go on n on always.. (-.-)

just cant wait to start werk soon.. 4 more days be4 my bz schedule will start.. (^^,)

got myself a stable job(^^,)

2010-01-20T14:28:00.002+08:00

Finally got myself employed!! (^^,)

19.01.2010

Rmbr wat i told earlier bout the interview, i tot it was a disaster.. but then thy still call me up

and offered me a job with em.. i was so shocking actually.. at 1st i dun really want it lh..

but after getting to noe wat thy gotta offer me, why not? after discussion with syg n my sis, thy also persuade me to just try it out 1st.. since got a 3mth probation period with em..

so i agreed to their offered..

Starting werk on 25th jan.. (^^,) cant really wait to start up my new job..

will do my best to succeed! and shall give the best impression to my employer! (^^,)

pics taken at east coast

2010-01-17T18:06:00.004+08:00

All the pics that has been taken with my only syg..

picnic at east coast with syg

2010-01-17T17:46:00.002+08:00

16th jan 2010..

an outing with syg and frens at east coast..

wake up early on tat day to prepare the food to bring for the mini picnic..

so i cook some nuggets, hotdogs and oso make some donuts:)

syg came back frm just in time wen done all the cooking n help me to pack up all the things needed to bring.. then off to east coast.. along the way met up with syg fren acap n his gf, naz..

reach at area G of east where its peaceful n not much ppl..

pick a perfect spot to set up the tent together ( but i the one guiding em to set up.. da 25 pun still dun noe how to set up simple tent.. cian2.. hehe:P)
then me n naz unpack all the food..
since the weather is still hot, we play monopoly 1st..
then acap n naz started off cycling while me and syg take a stroll by the sea n tooks pics
then our turn to cycle..
acap n naz wen off at ard 8pm.. so left only me n syg..
finally a quiet n peaceful time of our own to spend.. hehe
then home sweet home..

syg ovrnite at my crib as always wen come to sat nite.. then its kak ayu n abg yus turned wen fishing after they put the kids off to slp.. watch dvd with syg, but not long he doze off to slp 1st.. cian my syg da pnat after a very long day..

thx syg for making a great effort to spend more time with me.. i had a great n fun time with eu syg.. wani sygkan taufiq sgt2!! love eu always till the end n forever!:D

2010-01-15T02:44:00.002+08:00

Wani sayang taufiq sgt2.. i love eu my dear hubby syg..

i love eu now, i love eu then

I love eu forever till the end..

only you my loves..

2010-01-15T01:45:00.003+08:00

My one and only love of my life..

only you could build me up

wen the reality has torn me down

i can always find your warm presence

when it seems no one is ard..

just three lil words dun seems like enuf

for sumone who's smile still brighten up my day

who's touch has made me forget the rest of the world

for someone who's has always been der

to celebrate with me wen everything goes my way..

and to hold my hands

wen the worlds seems to fall apart on me

there is not enuf hours, in each passing days

to find all the words i wish i could says

ur kiss will last forever, ur touch will forever warms

eu will guide me to the sunlight n sheild me frm the storms

i know tat finding eu was my purpose in life

and thou troubles are destine to arise,

as long as our hearts are entangled as one

we will soar thru the problems till its subside

there's only one guy tat fulfill me, both in body n mind

only guy tat shower me with the feelings so true

the guy tat i will give my love now n forever

and tat only guy is eu..

all of this im writing, with everythings tats true

i swear on my life tat i do really love eu..

muhammad taufiq..

irwani loves eu..

turn out to be disaster..

2010-01-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

Want to noe wat the interview turn out to be today??
yes, a disaster.. LOL..

fisrtly, got lost for awhile as alight at the wrong bus stop.. den need to walk abt 15min to the location of interview tat is at Sing Ming plaza.. how shud i noe, i nvr wen to tat place be4.. overall journey frm tamp to der is abt 2hr.. damn long!..
reach der need to fill up application forms, den sits for the test paper.. was given 1 hr, n the paper were quite thick with lots of qns.. da mcm exams but worst.. it was really difficult.. most of it i ve not learn thru my studies as most of the qns are meant for staff nurse.. not a fresh graduate enrolled nurse.. in the end i left most of it blank, and frankly told the interviewer tat i could not make it for the test.. as its not meant for me..
plus, my interest to apply for tat position as a mobile nurse just fades.. so i did not do a proper n perfect interview.. hehe..

kalau tk suke uat pe nk cont with it kan, buang mase jek..:P tis job agency i sign with did not do a perfect job.. ade find for me a job tat is not really meant for me.. hmph! irritating.. i rather werk in a hospital wards setting.. and gain experiences der n recommendation to cont my studies in poly..

got a job interview tml

2010-01-13T19:17:00.002+08:00

job interview tml!!
after waited soo long for a job interview, finally got one tml!
its an interview at a medical company known as MW Medical pte ltd.. i ve apply for a position as mobile nurse.. its a very interest job prospect n rountine, diff frm hospital ward duty.. but still got shift duty lh.. frm just now i ve been preparing for the interview.. been reading thru my notes as the interview require me to sit for a small mini test.. so troublesome.. btw tis position is very demanding n not easy to get selected for the interview .. soo lucky to get it.. but still ve to go thru the interview n test.. im not into tis job at 1st.. but then wen i read thru the company background n how the duties of a mobile nurse is, im really motivated to join it.. y not i try sumthing diff rite:)
yupp, im quite prepared now.. get all the require document ready, search more bout the company n job duty, plus how to get to the locations.. the place is quite far frm here.. but nvrmind.. just think positive:D

wish me luck for the interview:)

im in pain:(

2010-01-12T16:14:00.002+08:00

yesterday plan to go out with syg was cancel..
as im not in the mood to go out as my right side of my body is still in pain.. especially the area ard my lower ribs..:( the pain is very sharp.. once i put exertion on it or once i cough, laugh or sneeze, the sharp pain can be felt:( i not sure whether its muscle torn or abrasion at the bone area... hmm..
even thou the plan to go out i cancel, syg still stay over at my hse to accompany me.. he help to massage my shoulder n back ckit2.. but the ribs cant be touch abit at all..
if not the sharp pain could be felt.. haiz..
tilll now the pain haven goes off yet.. syg ask me to seek medical checkup today and find out wats the cause of the pain... but im too lazy to go uhk.. especially if i need to go alone.. hmm.. if only my mum is here.. whenever im sick she will be the one takin me to see the doctor.. as all the financial issue other thing she could settle..but now..
im all alone, and ve to be independent.. syg cant accomapny me as he is schlin and werkin tis few days.. haiz.. nk depend on kakak, she got her own family probs.. hmm..

see lah if im in the mood to go and seek medical n the pain is getting worst then i will go.. now aje, im strted to feel abit breathless n start to cough.. dun tell me its a sign n symptoms of pneumothorax.. still in doubts..:(

meeting syg ltr..

2010-01-11T16:04:00.003+08:00

going to meet my syg ltr..

After his sch syg will be cumin over to fetch me.. den we go out n spend some quality time together again.. hehe:) goin to relax by the beach n ve a mini picnic..:D

at the library..

2010-01-11T15:44:00.002+08:00

my saturdays..
spend the whole day frm morning till night with my dear syg.. but most of the hrs were spend at the library.. watching dvd n surfing the net frm syg laptop.. (mentionin bout laptop, i just cant wait to get my own new laptop.. btw my previous laptop i ve to give away to my siblings.. n mum promise to give me money to buy new one.. so in order not to let her forget her promises i shall keep pestering her once i noe she receive her hse sale money..)
syg stay over at my hse n we cont to watch dvd.. but in the end , i watch it myself as syg has doze off to slp..(-.-)

my sundays..
babysitting job again! have to take care of my 3 nieces as their parents wen out for the whole day.. very the tiring, takin care of em plus do hse werk.. more irritated wen i myself not feeling very well, n accidantly sprain my right side muscle frm shoulder till hip while hanging out the clothes..(-.-) til now still aching lol..

good gal gone bad..

2010-01-04T03:46:00.002+08:00

Good gal gone bad or otherwise..

From a timid, innocent gal tat dun noe much bout the outside world or to afraid to do bad things, im slowly changing to be the opp of it..

i realise nowadays i really starting to change bit by bit.. i started to show attitude n stubborness.. easily got temper.. even dun care if the things is right or wrong, i still insisted on doing it.. without thinking of the possible outcome tat could cause more probz ltr on, i just proceed on doin it.. i tink my mind really is really going out of controlled.. the sense of eagerness n wanting to explore n noe bout it really ovrcum my normal senses n wise thought..

but wen i come to my senses n my mind are in controlled of self, i started to reflect back bout wat i ve done.. tat the point wen i realise wat i ve done is wrong.. hmm..

now i gettng really irritated.. wen come to discuss bout somethings important and question unanswer plus i could sense, tat sum1 im askin frm is like tryin to avoid answerin it.. it shows me another meaning behind it.. till now my mind is not at ease tau.. its like i ve been wantin to noe the ans frm this aftrnn till now.. my heart cant stay at ease n more n more of other qns linking to the previous topic starts to hunt me now.. hmm..

summary of the yr 2009..

2010-01-04T03:15:00.003+08:00

summarise the yr 2009..

It was a very challenging yr for me..

stress to do well in schools..
to graduate my nursing course with excellent grades.. finally succeeded but with v. gd grades..
challenging loves life.. ( ends of my love story with shafiq tat lasted for 9mths..) but then meet my true love, muhd taufiq.. soo far its getting better n we are more intimate..
very devastating impact occur to me n family tat causes me to be separated with my beloved siblings..
living in together with a new family members.. my elder sis n her family..
my personalities started to change bit by bit since the impact.. its either good gal gone bad or the other way round..
n finally i had to be totally independent to support myself..

for the new year, 2010..

hoping to made a great difference to wat had been happening to me..

to find a stable job n career soon to support self..
to starts on savings for the future ahead..
to be a more bold, strong, positve minded person, self motivated to face any obstacles cumin to me..
to be a faithful, loyal, caring, udrstanding, caring, loving n lovable gf for my only syg..
to be able to ve a long lasting relationship with my syg til the time comes for us to be officially tied dwn....
to help out my families as much as i could afford too..
to live life to the fullest, happily n peaceful..
finally prove to others tat i could be more independent n success despite of the obstacles n problems im facing..

countdwn with syg..

2010-01-03T23:56:00.001+08:00

31st dec 2009..
new yr eve was celebrated with my dear hubby syg..
wanted to go marina barrage at 1st but then cancel due to road block.. in the end we lepak at kent ridge park.. n could see the sea view with all the cargo boat frm the top of the hill.. could not see fireworks but at least can see the cargo fire signal thy fire up went its reach exactly 12am..:D
home sweet home ard 130am..

picnic at changi beach;)

2010-01-03T23:55:00.006+08:00

2nd jan 2010..
picnic at changi beach:D
Had fun at the changi beach with kak ayu n family.. wen there for picnic..
ard 3pm the water starts to surut( sinks).. den we start to hunt for baby crabs, hermitcrab, n some small creature tat could be found wen the seaer levels falls n sinks.. n lots of em:) took pics.. den let the creatures free back again to their wild life..

wen back jb to visit my family..:)

2010-01-03T23:55:00.005+08:00

1 jan 2009 > HAPPY NEW YR 2010 TO ALL!!

When back to jb to visits my siblings n mum der.. accompanied by kak ayu, syg n shamir..
did some new yr shopping:D bought for myself LV handbag n wallet.. very nice, i like it!!

Due to lack of time, cant really spend much time with my siblings.. especially my lil bros.. i really2 misses em.. tooks pics with em.. was shock to see changes with em.. all are getting darker n oredy like bdak2 kampung.. the saddess moments is wen i ve to leave.. wen i ve to see my lil bros cried.. my heart really sank n hurts deeply.. i really cant bear to leave em n be separated.. tears were rolling dwn.. i could not hold it back.. im just to sad to leave n be apart frm em..

dun just love me but hate my past..:(

2009-12-30T14:57:00.002+08:00

dun just love me but hate my background n family..:( its the same as hating me also!

I noe i ve a very bad family background with lots of probz.. i dun ask pun to be in such dilemma..:( evryone wants to ve a very decent and happy family to be with..
but then i still learns to appreciate wat i have n not wan to hate it.. others may say tat im too weak.. always give in to much till did not tink of myself.. ya.. i am the sort of person hu put others be4 selfs..
I noe it is not worth it to help others hu does not appreciate eu in the end.. but wat matters to me is tat busuk2 drg pun thy still my family., thy ve been with me since im young.. wat do eu expect me to do? hate em? ignore em?
busuk2 drg pun thy still jage me wen im dwn or sick.. thy are always der wen i need help.. outsider dun really cares bout us back den.. susah senang, we ve been always together.. did outsiders noes, wat we ve to go thru during our desperate moments.. NO! not talking bout outsiders, but other family members.. ape yg drg tau, is tat kalau kiter senang aru drg nk dtg.. jenguk2 kiter.. tym to lah sibuk nk mtk tlg kat kiter.. tpi tym2 kiter susah, family dlm masalh, drg kutuk tu lgy ade uhk!! fuck i hate it!
mcm2 org nk kutuk, gossip, benci!!
Even now, wen im not with my family.. lagy lah org lain sume, kutuk2 lgy byk.. walaupun aku yg mangse nye.. tpi aku tk lh sekecoh org luar yg tk tau ape2 langsung! mengate base on wat thy see n noe only..
but me, i see, i noe n i ve go thru it! watever pun i still respect my family.. i still syg mereka.. cox drg jgak yg tlah byk berjase padaku.. to outsiders, jgn nk bantu kalau hati tk suke, nk ungkit n mengate in the end!

and if others want to accept me, plz do accept my past n backgrounds.. jgn nk accept for the sake of kesian n half hearted.. accept me for wat i am.. i am the sort of person hu will do anything yg termampu to help the ones i love.. if eu tink its a burden n eu hate it lots then forget it.. dun ever force urself to help out..

happy 2mth syg

2009-12-29T03:53:00.002+08:00

28th dec 2009..
HaPpY 2mTh to me n syg!!

while waiting for syg to finish sch n meet him in the evening, i bake a choc almond cake for our 2mths..:) decorated it very nicely specially for syg.. bake it with lots of love:D
too bad since we were in a hurry again to meet his frens, to watch movie, he did not get to see my decoration but in the end get to taste it.. glad tat he love it, except for the almond.. hehehe.. ( so fussy!)
pack a small portion of it with the decorated rose choc(hand made) to giv to my future mother in law.. so thoughtful of me:) hehe..

soo met his 3 best pal at lot 1.. had our dinner 1st at food culture.. den headed to the cinema to watch ALVIN N THE CHIPMUNKS 2! the movie was awesome! really loves it.. love all the chipmunks! especially, theodore:) he's soo cute!! most of the scene is hilarious.. all of us cant stop laughing.. heheh:D the theatre were fully pack with families watching it..

after tat back to my ex hse, to pass my bro money n food.. still dependent on me.. as he also stayin alone.. did not follow my mum n other to JB.. aftr tat home sweet home.. gave syg a gdbye kiss with full of love since its our special day:D hehe.. actually everyday kisses oso the same.. hahaha:D

outing to hendersaon wave

2009-12-29T03:17:00.004+08:00

27th den 2009..

waited for syg to came back frm werk.. wen he reach at my crib it was raining.. so we waited for it to stop.. at tat time my sis n family were out.. so only me n syg alone.. great! so while waiting, we were disturbing n gurauing with each other.. n most of the time i was being bullied.. naughty him.. hehe..

once the rain stop, we made our way to our destination.. tat is to telok blangah hill to climb ovr to the henderson wave.. it is a bridge connecting both telok blngah n mount faber hills..

the scenery frm the top view was great.. it was very windy.. so we had a really great tym der together.. took alot of pictures..:D tat place is indeed a great place to chill n hang out.. till syg persuade kwn2 dier lepak sane.. hehe:D

we lepak der til 7pm.. as we were rushing to meet syg frens, aidil, ayu and fairoz.. thy had last min plan to sing karaoke.. thy had oredy book the place at bedok cc.. had our dinner 1st den sing all the way till 1130pm.. after tat home sweet home..

i starting to feel the emptiness in me..:(

2009-12-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes wen i am bored or feel lonely or even feel of being left out.. i realise tat the emptiness in my heart n mind has not recovered or fill up fully.. the portion of my heart or mind tat ve been left empty since i ve been separated frm my family..
i beginning to miz my siblings more.. i really miss their kecohness..i miz my fourlittle heroes.. especially ayob.. my lil ben 10.. every tym i see ben 10, it make me rmbr him..
i rmbr one moment, he cries wen i come near him.. he dun even wnt to hug or kiss me.. he really has regard me as stranger.. rmbring it really hurts me lots..
not just tat.. wen the others keep askin wen im comin back to stay wif em, especially ahmad.. i dun even noe how to ans em.. but just kept quiet..:''( deep inside my heart, i really want to be with em..
the big hole of emptiness in my heart really takes time to heal or maybe wont even be heal..:'(
i may seems happy n cheerful now frm the outside.. but in the inside, my heart still tearing in pain wen tinkin of em.. every time n moment i will be tinking of em.. espcially wen ders sumthing tat trigger it to flashback moments i had with em..:'(
it may be easy for others to say, u are strong, u can move on with life, dun give up, etc2.. hmm.. hanya tuhan saje yg tahu.. how hurtful it is..:''(

i want to go jb n visits em.. but then.. surely others here, will be reluctant to let me go.. plus.. i in need of money for myself.. want to travel far, i dun tink i ve enuf money to do so..
if only thy still stayin here in singapore.. it will be easier for me to meet em.. bleh jgak lepas kan rindu.. hmm.. " kak ni, jgn lupe visit kite kat sini tau.. we all miss eu.. jgn plak kak ani lupe kite kat sini.." tat is the words thy will say wen msg n call me.. :'''(
hmm..
one more thing tat make me feel sad sumtyms.. is wen i see others, with their parents n siblings happily togther.. i easily get touch n hurts.. i dun expect to be independent tis fast.. witout the family tat i ve stay n grown up in together for my whole 20yrs of life..hmm.. :''(

but im grateful now.. there still others who be4 i dun even spend much tym wif are there to support me.. to help me go thru tis hardship.. but then the attention n love i get frm em is not the same as frm my own family.. sumtimes i dun feel love at all.. i dun get being pampered anymore by my mum.... luckily.. syg is oways der for me.. whenever i with him.. is the only moments i feel pampered n love.. but sumtimes he is oso strict n irritatin.. till i sendiri cant take it.. hehe:) hmm.. camne the emptiness nk heal.. if sumtimes i will feel left out n lonely n hurtz.. tat moment i will tink of my past n family.. all the flashback takes place..

wat matters now.. i ve to move on.. bee really2 strong irwani.. u can do it! :D

the wkends was indeed v tiring..

2009-12-23T22:03:00.003+08:00

19th dec 2009..
Bro in law rent a van.. Soo, me, syg n sis family, we wen to eat dinner at arnolds city plaza..
after tat we headed to giant at tamp.. since bro in law got his got voucher to spend der.. so we were shoppin for groceries.. besides tat the little ones got toys.. inlcuding me:) i got a soft toy, a pink teddy:) then home sweet home after a tiring day.. then syg ovrnite at my crib as it was late.. great;) i get to spend more tym with him..

20th dec 2009..
waited for syg to came back frm werk.. then an outing with sis n family to suntec as sis wanted to buy an external hardisk at the it show.. then pass by cotton on, so bought myself a pair of black n white kelle cardigan.. after tat fetch yana and we plan to lepak at marina barrage.. it was soo cold n windy der.. as we reach der ard 9plus.. dun wanna miss the chance of chamwhoring.. soo took lots of pose..:) in the end we were hungry, so bought meals at mac drive thru at kallang as it was midnight.. plan to lepak and eat at near the kallang stadium area.. but the rain were pouring heavily.. so just headed back home..

wen to fetch my future in laws.

2009-12-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

22th dec 2009..
Frm noon till 5pm wen to changi with my sis n family..
ate luch at changi village den headed to changi beach.. sis n bro in law wen fishing while me n my nieces wen cycling..
we were camwhoring and take lots of pose.. hehe.. it was great:D

after tat we were rushing to fetch yana( bro in law sis) and syg and then all of us headed to changi airport to fetch future parent in law (bro in law plus my syg parents).. :D
Theywere back frm mekka performing haji.. then send em straight home.. and lepak der till midnight.. my future in laws were sharing their experience there with us.. then each of us get a small gifts frm em.. i dun expect to get one too:) frm syg mum.. its a small n cute bracelet..:D

21st dec..

2009-12-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

21st dec 2009..
Went for job interview with my bestie, lay wee:) a job interview at a small eldercare organisation..
Both of us were interview togther by the director of that small company.. the interview turn out great.. i was not tat nervous.. the director, he tells us bout the company background and wat they do to help the elderly n the kind of service they give n provide.. and also wat we were suppose to do wen werkin with em..
after quite along talk n chat.. the director finally agreed to employ us.. hehe:D
wahh! isit it great, being employed immediatedly on the spot.. hehe

And the salary is great too.. so basically our job is.. we ve to do in home care for the sick elderly.. the job we need to do can be simple or can be hard n challengin.. the paid is $7 per hr and may be increase to $8 per hr if i completed the 1st few assignmt given very well n persistent dont need to wait till 200hrs probation due to my nursing background.. if my duty is above 7pm onwards, the paid is $10 per hr! not included the least time rate fees..
the werk timing is according to the assignment given n the hrs the client wanted it.. so its very flexible.. for now just waiting for assignments by the company.. so now since its christmas season, der's is not much client.. just hoping to get more soon;)

schedule...

2009-12-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

Last wk was quite a bz week for me.. wen out almostv everyday.. mostly wen out with my sis and her daughters..
14th nov..
When to parkway.. as my sis wanna change the L.V scarfs and the long sleeve cardigan tat she bought at cotton on.. In the end she ended up buying another pair for each of it.. bought 1 cardigan for myself too..:)

16th nov
Got an interview with a job agency at ngee ann city.. so sis accompany me der as i not sure the exact location n wanted sum1 to accompany me.. cox tk best uhk gi town sorng2.. hehe.. the interview was asimple one.. ms wini will call me up if the is any job vacancy tat really suits wat i wan.. speaking of it.. i got another job agency interview nxt tues at parklane mall.. lol.. smpii due agency skali call me up.. hehe.. tkpe2.. like syg say, just go for both.. in the end see which agency finds me the suitable nursing job faster n which agency is efficient.. hehe.. the interview with a private nusing home is still on too.. its on mon.. tat one i go with lay wee.. waiting for her to come back frm china.. just only start holiday da bz dgn interview sane sini.. hehe.. lol.;)

17th nov..
Its my niece, nabila 10th bdae.. So followed my sis to buy a bdae present for her.. nabila got a winnie the pooh hp.. its also consider a bdae gift frm nabila grandma n aunty.. Btw not only nabila got a new hp.. my sis also was tempted to buy a hp for herself.. the hp tat she ve been yearning for soo long.. finally she bought it.. hehe.. too tempted i guess.. soo kire kan tis whole week she has been shopping and spending alot for herself.. ouh ya not forgeting she also rebond her hair.. for me.. duit gaji lum masuk.. soo tk dpt shopping.. kesian kan.. hehe

18th nov..
after a few days of going out.. my body da nk giv up.. terlalu pnat.. till i was not feeling well.. but then.. i want to meet my syg.. for 4 days tk meet.. since he is bz wif sch n werk.. and tis is the only day he is not werking after sch.. so mmg planning to meet him... wen he heard i was not tat well he wants to cancel it.. he wanted me to rest.. but then.. i still berdegil nk jmpe gak.. hehe..
ended up telling him tat im fine.. n can go out.. actually masih got headache uh.. hehe.. da rindu sgt2 pe.. nk uat camne..;P meet for a while je.. wen to suntec it show.. accompany him.. nk survey external hard disk for my sis n laptops for his frens.. den he lepak at my hse for a while till 10pm.. cox tk leh after 10.. if not motor kene saman.. hehe:) da kene 2 tyms..bab tu serik.. hehe;P

starting of the holidaes...

2009-12-14T14:22:00.003+08:00

Its the starting of my holidae's and it is seriously boring..
wake up early in the morning tday do nthing, except for doing some hsewerk to help my sis such as washing the clothes, hangin it, vacuum the hse n moppin the floor..
after tat nthing to do.. so here i am blogging bout my boring routine..

I did ve search some of the part tym related to nursing.. N ve applied some of it.. soo far got a job interview nxt mon at a private nursing agency.. will be going der with lay wee.. see 1st how it goes.. thru the survey on the job online, the job prospect, rountine n salary is not bad.. It has flexible timing, and the paid is $7 per hr based on assignment.. if past office hrs additional $3 per hr.. its really gd rite the paid.. and the location is oso not that far for me.. its at aljunied road.. near my ex hse.. hmm.. so if everything goes well i dun mind gettin it..:) while waiting for response frm the hospitals i applied..:) really hoping tat i could get a sponsorship frm cgh.. dun mind bonding with em..

Waiting oso for my final end yr results.. the results will be release on the 23rd of dec if im not wrong.. hehe.. if only lh my grade could reach 3.5.. is'nt it better.. den i could straight away cont my studies at poly and take my diploma in nursing.. but i tink it is not possible frm a gpa of 3.0 can jump straight to 3.5.. even thou i ve done better in my final posting in hospital.. but still hoping for the miracles.. hehe:D

goin to miss my cp frens:(

2009-12-11T17:43:00.004+08:00

Had a fun tym with rejina, natasha, lay wee and isyah on the last day.. we was on our way to back to sch for briefing.. and we took some pic in the mrt:) they were among my best cp frens.. i really had a great term of cp with all my cp frens.. i realise i am more open n talks more during tis final posting with em.. and really can get along well with em:) and i glad i could.. gonna miss em all soo much:(

soo here are somes of the pic taken:)

its the last day of attchmnt:D

2009-12-11T17:29:00.002+08:00

Finally its over!!
today is the last day of attchment:) Tat means it oso marks the end of the whole 2 year nursing course. I cant believe tat i can survive it till the end despite of some probs n difficulties i ve to face thru out the 2 years.. and recently bout my my family probs and the sudden last move of hse.. Im really glad that i can make it thru tis far.. And im really proud of myself:) tis show how hard n storng my perseverence n motivation is to make it tis far..

So now just ve to enjoy the holidaes ahead:) while oso waiting for the hospitals i applied to call me up for the job interview.. So far i only applied at CGH adn TTSH.. The rest of the hospital is further so cant apply.. Actually i really wanted to apply at KKH hospital at 1st and werkin at pediatric ward.. but then the hospital is far for me.. and the transportation frm here to there is inconvenient.. to bad.. if only i still stayin at my old hse at paya lebar.. haiz..:(

shots taken on my bdae..

2009-12-06T16:54:00.002+08:00

28th nov 2009..
My bdae shots moments with syg..

pics taken during hari raya haji..

2009-12-06T16:49:00.004+08:00

Hari raya aidiladha 2009..

my bdae celebrations was great:D

2009-11-29T02:49:00.003+08:00

so now im back, updating again my blog:)
28th nov..
it was a bz n exciting day for me.. wait up early to go to the hair saloon to reborn back my hair:) and finally its done n the outcum was great:D loves my new hairstyle.. it is more managable.. dun need to pin up or tidy it up wen go out.. just let it flow freely:) but the rebonding took a long time.. n i was late for my date with my syg.. and he doesnt sound happy at 1st wen i msg him that i will be late.. but then it turn out fine.. after he saw me with my new hair looks:) hehe

reach home oredy i immediately dress up n prepared for the special bdae plus 1st mth anni date:) i wear a simple but yet elegant dress that suits my new hairdo:) n of cox, my syg love it.. hehe.. seriously i look much more mature, feminine n elegant in it.. haha:P (angkat bakul sendiri nmpk) n my hubby as usal dress up smartly n formal as he always does wen comes to special occasion.. tats make me love him more..:P hehe..

luckily it stops raining once we were abt to leave the hse.. so we wont be drench up in the rain..
i was very excited at 1st.. wondering wat special plan has my syg plan for us.. as at 1st he jokes to me tat he goin to bring me to a normal coffee shop and ve our date there.. so notie of him:P hehe..
so.. at last we reach to our destinations..
the 1st suprise, at our very 1st spot we went for our 1st date.. its at plaza sing.. so sweet of him:) and..
2nd suprise, instead of coffee shop, he treat me to swensens.. its been a long time since i ate there.. he ask me to just ordered wat i wan to eat.. soo, i ordered baked chicken rice, apple juice n finally for desert, its chocolate sticky chew.. while syg ate breaded chicken set, soursop juice, side dish is fries n for dessert is banana split.. theres a lot of food ordered just for the 2 of us.. so i had to ate til full n almost wanna throw up.. hehe..
The 3rd suprise.. he mention tat he wanna book tickets to watch ninja assasins after tat so i just follow but actually i wanna watch new moon.. so i tots he will be buying the tix ovr the counter but then instead he had oredy book the new moon tickets for us online in advance.. without me knowin it.. soo notie of him to trick me.. hehe:P but yet soo sweet.. The movie was gd n lovely, to me only.. but to syg it was boring.. haha.. but for the sake of me he booked it.. thk eu dear..
soo.. after the movie, we riding2 ard town as i wan to see the christmas decors.. then headed home..
im glad tat i could spend special n memorable times n moments with syg.. but then... frankly speakin, i abit of sad as there is no special gift tat i can keep as a memorable frm him.. does not matter to me if its just a small card to be kept.. so the mood i had wen he send me home was abit dwn.. and he knew it, n was affected by it.. till in the end he was angry n pissed wif me.. im soo sowie syg.. i did not mean it..:(
suprisingly, there is still some surprises awaiting at home.. he bought for me a box of chocalate that he kept in the fridge earlier.. n he txt me to check it out.. so cwiit n totful of him.. knowin tat i love to eat chocalate, indeed he bought for me.. tat is not the end..
The last suprise tat really make me shock.. as i did not expect it at all.. no one told me bout it.. till i myself found it.. tot of lyin dwn awhile on my bed, den i found out there is a black box undr my pillow.. it was another gift frm my syg!! it is a watch that he bought frm 25 HOURS..

Thk eu very much hubbie ku syg!!:'D i did not expect to get all of the suprises frm eu syg.. nvr did i get tis kind of special treatment frm any other guy (my ex's).. only eu sayang.. I love eu soo much!! Im soo lucky to ve eu as my hubbie boifie:) Thank eu soo much for all the things eu ve done for me, the kindness, cares n concern since the time we knows each other til now..Thk eu, for showering me wif all ur love, sacrifises.. Thk eu, for being patience wif my attitude n behaviour.. and lastly thk eu, for always being there for me, supporting me no matter wat.. i will always love eu forever sayang!! muacckkzz!!

ps: will upload all the pics soon..:)

2009-11-28T03:11:00.002+08:00

im goin to slp now.. need to wake up early tml to go to hairsaloon.. and ve a new hairdo:) a way i wan to pamper myself for my bdae.. hehe..
and cant wait for the surprise tat my syg has plan for me tml.. hmm..
still unknown.. hehe..

Hari raya haji:)

2009-11-28T02:21:00.002+08:00

27th nov 2009..
selamat hari raya aidiladha to my hubbie, family, relatives n frens!!

This year raya haji was celebrated differently tat the past years.. in a new family members, new environment n situations.. but one thing for sure.. the meaning of it has really struck me deeply..

Meaning of mengenali erti pengorbanan..
byk pergorbanan yg harus aku lalui thruout tahun ni.. not only me but my family n anyone closer to me.. we ve to face a lot of changes, problems after problems.. even thou the we ve been thru alot of probz for the past yrs.. but dugaan tat hits me n family tis year is really hard.. it has really changes our life totally..a lot of sacrifises has to be made prior to it..

i ve to sacrifise the happiness i ve with my family.. after soo long stayin together n been thru a lot of hardship togethr.. i ve to be separated frm em.. not tat i wan too.. but situations has really force me into it.. the raye atmosphere i had here is totally diff frm the time i ve with my family.. i miss the joy, noises n busy ness i had wif my family.. the sound of my siblings arguments, laughing n ordering each other on the chores we had to do.. will i experiences the moments again with em??:'(
my siblings had to sacrifises their studies here in singapore n left it behind just like tat.. even thou their grades were gd.. so as to follows our parents to move to jb.. they ve to leave behind their frens n the life they had here.. they had no choices.. but ve to sacrifise.. it also hurts me to see em facing n go thru it..

Just becox of adults affairs, thy ve to be affected..
The main source that causes all tis to happen is ME.. Sumtyms, i just could not forgive myself for wat had happen to me n family.. But am i really guilty to protect my rights?? it did not even struck me to plan all tis to happen.. Its just happen like tat.. without anyone expecting it..
afterall, i cant change fate.. i have to accept watver has happened.. n im slowly trying to adapt to the new changes..
but wat really matters most is tat.. I really miss my family soo much.. I miss my mum.. i miss, my siblings.. i miss the past we had togther as a family.. i miss the joy, laughter n jokes we had.. tk dpt aku mengucap kan selmat hari raya to em.. it really makes me sad...
but no matter wat.. thy will always be a part of me.. i will treasure em deep in my hearts..

Happy bdae to me:D

2009-11-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

Midnite had struck n pass by!!
Firstly,
Happy 2oth bdae to myself!! finally i ve reach 2o.. haha.. my age getting older but will still look young:D hehehe!
secondly,
Happy 1st mth to me n boifren!;D but to us it is no longer like we ve been attach for a mth but more den tat.. it is like we ve known each other for more den 1yr.. but im glad tat i get to noe him.. now he n his family are my second family tat i can share joy wif since i ve been facing alot of hardship lately.. syg u are the only one tat i can share my love n part of me wif.. since i ve no else now except for eu, kak ayu n family.. i believe they will always be there for me, even since the day i ve to parted frm my own family.. syg has given me alot of support n courage thruout my hardship.. he is always der for me no matter wat.. n i really appreciated it alot.. we ve been thru a lot of argument since the day we known each other.. but it has really bring us more closer then ever be4.. n it has made me realise, tat i love him more n more each time.. u are the only one for me sayang.. no one else or no other guy has ever been tis close to me, only syg.. only syg hu noes evrything bout me.. frm head to toe, my background, my dark past n secrets n lots more.. tat is y.. i feel tat i ve been in love with him for a long time den the actual time line.. weird but true...
i love eu always n forever sayang.. my one only hubbie.. muacks!!

family pictures

2009-11-24T01:47:00.002+08:00

Taken at the airport..
my new family..
sayang n his mum...

picture with fren

2009-11-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

picture taken wen playing bowling:D

bz schedule evryday..

2009-11-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

Updating my days frm 21st nov onwards..
21st nov..
Happy birthday to my belove elder sis n bro in law abg yunus:D sowie for the late wishes:)
So since its their special, the get to spend time together for a special date without their daughters.. so thats mean i had to babysits em... so frm evening onwrds i ve to take care of em.. BUT.. with the help of my syg;) so rite after werk he came to my hse n help me take care of em.. but not long after tat he slept n left me taking care of em alone til thy wen to slp ard 1am.. so wen thy slept, i disturbed my syg.. hehe:D and as usual we spend our precious tym together til he had to get back home before 4am..

22nd nov..
outing with my sis n her family.. wen to giant to buy new blender as the old one was so called spoilt by me ( as it is oredy antique n tym to change new one ) haha!.. den wen to my uncle hse, wak fadil, to take some things.. after tat had plan to get back to my mum hse to take my printer but then cancel, as wak fadil gave me his printer instead.. so save tym n my old printer can just gave to my siblings to use.. after tat wen back home n pack our clothes as we were to ovrnite at my future parents in law hse, tat is my sis parents in law hse, tat is my syg hse.. HAHAHA.. so complicated lah! the purpose is to facilitate the nxt day plan.. tat is on..

23rd nov..
Wake up early morning at ard 430am.. its the day whereby syg parents start their journey to arab saudi to tunai kan haji.. So we as one family, with syg grandma, aunts n uncles send em to changi airport for their departured.. it was a happy, cheerful plus also sad farewell.. im soo glad to ve join in the occasion.. This shows tat i ve slowly started to be close to syg family n be part of em.. i appreciated it alot even thou sumtimes i do felt akward n left out.. maklum lah, i am only known by syg relatives as kak ayu younger sis.. but only his parents n siblings knows my relationship wif him.. ( but there is still sum probz behind it)..

later in the afternn.. had plan to meet up lay Wee (my werkmate n bestfren).. syg accompanied me to wen out with she n a frens.. met at ehub.. then the plan starts.. had our lunch at seoul garden, ate alot til our stomach is bloated! haha:D once we were full, we wen to played bowling.. Its was lay wee 1st tym.. and tat was the purpose of our outing.. since i and her had the same day off frm werk, so we had plan it earlier.. had 2 rounds of game.. the wen our separates way..
accompany syg to clinic in the evening.. as he had to take m.c as he had to skipped sch tday to send off his parents.. den he send me back home..
so now.. im alone at home.. so bored as my sis n her family wen outing.. too bad syg cant accompany me at home.. as he was too tired n slpy after a v long n bz day..
kesian sygku, very tired til now i tink he fall aslp oredy.. gd nite my syg.. love eu lots..

Outing with my hubbie sayang:)

2009-11-21T16:25:00.004+08:00

Last weekend outing with syg at vivocity..

After attending my elder sis fren wedding wen out wif syg.. We wen to vivocity.. bought bdae gifts for kak ayu n abg yus.. den we wen window shoppin, and take a stroll at the park der only..

his best frens, aidil n ayuni join in ard evening.. had our dinner together at banquet.. And as usual at banquet surely i will eat ban mian chicken noodle:) hehe.. no idea wat else to eat.. lol..

after dinner sat at the park and ate dessert.. thy bought a tub of ice cream n we ate at the park.. precisely syg n i ate most of it and finish up all the ice cream while aidil n ayuni ate a few scoops..

cant denied both of us are really mad bout ice cream! hehe.. wen home a bit late be4 my curfew, tat is be4 11pm must reach home.. but as usual my bro in law and sis only advise to not ovr exceed time again..

2009-11-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

Lat week was totally bz week for me..
1stly with my attachment always, even at amk rehab is a bz place ever den at ward.. very tiring.. got lots of changing, bathing, bed makin, toilet in and out.. and mostly the shift schedule was so tiring.. aftrn, morning, aftrnn, morning..
2ndly, spending time wif taufiq dear, n familia:).. been spending tym with him n em frm thursday til sun..

thursday, he fetch me frm werk n hang out at my hse til late nite.. watching tv n fixing his fren laptop..
friday, waited for him finish sch den wen out to change my ic add to a new add at police station den headed to causeway pt, actually wen went der as i wanted to eat ban mian den survey gifts for my sis n bro in law bdae:)..
sat, accompany sis to a wedding at amk with my niece in the afternn.. den wen out with dear and his frens to eat at sakura at dwntown est it was so ex's for me and i cant even eat alot..lol..:D.. my shared, i paid a quater of it den rest dear pay for me:) thk eu dear.. but amg 5 of us, dear ate alot.. almost half of the food on the table we took he finish up.. hehe:D den dear ovrnite at my hse, get to slp near my dear and spend more personal tym wif him til the nxt morning wen he wen offf to werk.. ;)
finally sun.. wen out with 3 of my best sistaz:) met at pasir ris mrt den headed to dwntown ehub.. at 1st was planning to go der eiather to play bowling, go escape theme park or watch movie.. in the end all the plan was spoilt.. non really suits.. in the end we ate at mac den wen shoppin at white sands.. btw my dear tagged along too:) after send em off.. me and dear spend tym and take a stroll at pasir ris ponds for a while be4 he send me back home:)

so tat is my bz schedule for the past few days.. til no tym to online n update my blog.. since today after morning shift duty tday, still has tym to update:)

at amk community hospital..

2009-11-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

Had the 1st day of attachment at amk ttsh rehab or community hospital..
It was soo bored there.. nthing much to do.. except waiting for call bell and assist patient wan to go to toilet.. Maybe cox its 1st day n we start late.. so most of the job is done.. tml afternn shift.. conferm will be more boring.. haiz..
nvrmind.. the thing tat im lookin forward bout afternn shift evrytime is tat, hubbie will pick me up frm werk:) so save up transport fare n dun need to go back home alone at nite..:D
btw yeahness, no more simulation..:D im soo not lookin forward to it.. as i will oways be choosen to one of the role play without fail evry term:( so replace to afternn shift.. another day of meeting hubbie:)

bad weather..:(

2009-10-31T17:58:00.003+08:00

Its raining heavily:( how to go out like tat.. now bie is stuck at his werk place.. he cant ride his bike in this weather..
And we cant even go out like that.. oredy book the movie ticket.. how to cancel it.. terpaksa wait til the rain stops.. this 2 days it has been raining.. Even yesterday had plan to go out with him but cancel due to the bad weather..:( haiz.. im really soo bored at home! no matter wat i want to go out..:(

me and him:D

2009-10-31T17:22:00.003+08:00

more bout him:D

2009-10-31T01:26:00.002+08:00

Meeting boifren later:D!!
hubbie will fetch me n then be goin to vivo after he finish werk..
will be watching jennifer body at 10pm.. Hoping to ve a great tym wif boifren:)

Goin to spend the whole day n nite with him..
As usual he will ovrnite at my hse on wkends since the last 2 wkends.. Good kan can spend evry wkends nite spend wif ur love one,, watching tv, chatting, gurauing n giggling thru out the nite:)

now since i ve been staying wif my sister,the impossible has been possible for me.. unlike be4 want to meet my previous boifren oso hard.. need to keep it a secret.. now.. no more secrets:) everything is open.. even my grandma, relatives n parents noes bout my relationship with taufiq.. It is easier for me and him cox he is oso consider my in laws.. so basically.. i noe most of his family members n he also noes most of my family members:) consider a bonus for us..;D

Hopefully my relationship with taufiq could last long.. as i dun wan another disaapointmnt to occur again.. I will try best to uphold tis brand new relationship N make it last forever sayang.. as i really has fate in it like u do.. the strong willingnes, perseverence, truthfulness n patience tat u ve put in me, i really appreciate it dear:) n i will also do the same too:)